Growing up alone and creative

I spend a lot of my time alone. Do I consider myself creative? Am I wise? I guess you would have to be the one to answer that.

I have been trying to reflect on why I don't have friends, and maybe it is because I am not trying to make the effort to reach out to people. As an introvert, as probably many people who spend big chuncks of time on the Internet are, I need time to reprogram myself.

It is not that I do not want connection with other people; I do very much desire that. It is just sometimes I pull away because I need a break or, because I am feeling overwhelmed, or I am unable to deal with someone elses situation at that moment. It is not because I lack empathy or don't care.

I wonder if that is how it is with a lot of people who are creative. They go inside their own world to find peace and soalstice from outside pressures. One thing that I have started working on is to watch my complaining about myself and complaining about others. When you are an introvert and you don't have a lot of family or friends, often you turn negative judgement on yourself. Sometimes negativity can also be abusive toward others.

I am working to errase it from my life completely. It is destructive and abusive. People complain on the news, in the papers, on television, to their therapists, to the government. No one wants to take personal responsibility any longer. We have turned into a country of chronic blamers and complainers. I for one am removing it from my life. I will write about my progress on this blog.

I have heard that it takes at least 21 days to break an old habit or build a new habit. My goal is to go at least 21 days without complaining one time about myself or someone else. I hope you will join me.